Why am I awake at 4am? Stress. I started this blog to put my thoughts and feelings down in an attempt to help decrease stress in my life. Sounds good, right? We'll see.
I'm a recruiters wife. The United States Military owns my husband, and our family...at least for the next 5-7ish years. I know, I know, "I knew that when I married him," right? Not so much, so STFU. Until you experience life as a recruiters wife, you will never know the toll it takes. I don't recommend it to anyone. It's a sad, lonely existence. I'll get more into that in later blogs tho.
I want to focus on me...I want to focus on who I am, what defines me, and where I hope to go. I rarely get to do this since military life interferes with every aspect of my being: family, work, school, and what little social life I manage to have. My lack of freedom to live my life is what prompted this blog. And it's not fair to say, "Well just leave," because you know as well as I do that's easier said than done. It's not that I don't love my husband, I just don't love this lifestyle we are stuck in.
